Yesterdays and Tomorrows

Yesterday evening, I went out with a friend whom I haven’t met for about 15 years. That’s something wonderful by itself considering that I’m 27 this year and we were around 12 back then. She invited me for an EU film event and it was nice that she asked me along.

We weren’t very close back then, lost contact for 15 years, found each other again through Facebook (just love FB). t was very nice meeting her yesterday because of how it happened and also because I felt that she was a very nice and interesting person. Very comfortable person to converse with as well.

Over the evening, some thoughts came into mind, we have friends between us who were in very different vocations now, pilot, doctor, lawyer, journalist, engineer, architect, bank officers and the likes. I was thinking, 15 years ago we were sitting in the same class, still small kids but 15 years down the road, we are now young adults each finding our own path of life to undertake, to live. Pretty amazing although it’s naturally so that it happens.

I also realized that each of us should soon have the road which we will be undertaking for the future within these few years. How many people do you know who changed their careers (let’s say a dentist into a lawyer) in their 30′s when they are married, my guess is not many. What we do during these few years will most likely decide our paths.

Mid 20′s is certainly a exciting age to live in but also a time felt with uncertainly and self doubt. Can we really achieve what we set out to do? Here’s a paradox, certain as I was in my endeavors, I am still shakable in my beliefs about self. I would think it’s normal, everyone should have felt that at some points of their lives when undertaking new things. I wouldn’t feel that if it was a video game, I already know what is going to happen. Alas, life is not a video game, you can’t save and load the same situation again and again till you get it right, and life offers so many more different situations that could happen. You do one thing, fail or succeed, then get on to the next. The jitters is what we feel in between, the uncertainty, the fear and the self doubt.

After I got home from the meet, I sat down and thought about what just happened. Apart from feeling pleasant that the meet was good and it would be nice to meet up with her again, I was thinking of how life would be in the next few years to come. I imagine this is because I felt that the 15 years that went past us wasn’t really that long, I am thinking that the next 15 years might come again soon and I will be in my 40′s by then. Many of my friends come from the age group of between 40-50′s and some of them mentioned that life just passes so fast and they were already at that age in the blink of an eye. It was yesterday night while sitting alone in the comfort of the armchair by my living room that I felt the meaning of the words “Life is short” strongly.

She has also inspired me in some ways because from her, I have found another perspective and way of appreciating and viewing life. I like the way she thinks and able to cast it out in words. Certainly someone I hope to be able to hang out often with in future.

Wish to take this opportunity to thank my friend for this pleasant outing, enjoyed her company greatly and hopefully the feeling is mutual although I’m no prince charming, just an imperfectly normal person with flaws despite what is written that sometimes makes me appear larger than life. :)